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Notes: Okay, this is what happens when Jolie leaves me alone with a computer for a few days. Another installment of The Assistant. For those not playing the home game so far, this is Spander with Wesley, WIP, uncommitted, possibly subject to not being finished. We'll see how far I get. Dark AU.
The Assistant part 5
There are holding cells in the basement of the building, designed for demons of various sizes and strengths. They put Xander in one. Spike carries him in, folded over his shoulder like a sack of oats, and lays him carefully down on the bunk.
"We should give him some blankets," Wesley says numbly, from the door of the cage. He's got the crossbow ready, in case of surprises. Xander's barely moved since Nevada, but he's conscious now. When Spike puts him on the bunk and steps back, he lies there for a few seconds, then lifts a hand and slowly feels his own face.
"He needs blood," Spike said, studying Xander with a critical eye. "If we want him to talk, he needs to eat first."
"I'll see what's in the stores." Wesley trudges off to the refrigerators, some part of his brain still stuck on repeat: I'm getting blood for Xander Harris. Xander Harris is a vampire. He's passed through several kinds of shock on the drive home, and by now he's well into self-blame. Xander Harris survived to adulthood on the Hellmouth. He lost an eye to evil, and a tongue to stupidity. Who knows what he saw in Africa, what made him give up the field and ask for a desk. And after all that, he still died. Because he was using the library. Because he was there late that night, instead of Wesley.
It's pointless to think about it, and so of course he does, over and over, from different angles. He's still weeks from learning about the incident in Tunbridge Wells, the bizarre non-reason for Angel's transformation. Taking two pints of blood from the refrigerator and checking their dates, he wonders what he missed. There must have been a portent of some kind. Souls don't just go missing.
He takes the blood back to the cages, and finds Spike sitting on the bunk with his back to the door, a hand on Xander's shoulder. Xander's eyes are open, and he's staring at the ceiling. It's a scene from an emergency room--the friend comforting the injured party. But in this case, the injured party is well past dead, and there's no comfort to be offered.
"I found these," Wesley says, hesitating at the door to the cage. For some reason it feels intrusive to enter. Perhaps because he's the only one here with a heartbeat.
Xander's eye rolls sideways and down, until he can see Wesley standing there. He blinks.
"Hi," he says. His voice is paper-thin, barely viable. It's disturbing to see the throat wound move when he speaks.
"Hello," Wesley says. Then there's nothing else to say, except I'm sorry. But it would be the demon he'd be apologizing to--Xander himself is gone. So there's no point.
"Let's have it, then." Spike turns halfway and holds out a hand, and for a moment Wesley thinks he's been crying. Or close to, at least. That's surprising, and he tosses the blood bags without thinking. Spike catches them and turns away. "This bit's not going to be pretty. I'll come find you when we're done."
That's an uncommonly polite dismissal, and Wesley frowns. "I don't think it's safe for you to be alone here."
"I'm not alone," Spike says.
"With him, I mean."
"It's safe," Spike says.
"How do you--"
"Angelus's still running around out there, isn't he? Better go do some research."
"Are you sure?" Again, Wesley has the strange sense that he's an extra, an uninvited guest. That's absurd, given that he and Spike are now the only two people who can bring Angelus to bay.
"I'm sure," Spike says. He lays one of the blood bags down on the floor, and raises the other to his teeth. "Off you go."
Wesley lingers a moment, then walks alone down the darkened hall to the elevator.
"Did you find the surprise?" Angelus asks.
Wesley sits gripping the phone, seeing nothing, his mouth clamped shut. Somewhere in front of him, Spike is smoking a cigarette. He can smell the smoke. Shouldn't do that in the library.
"The crackerjack surprise," Angelus says. "The gooey center of the Tootsie Pop. Did you get it?"
"We got it," Wesley says. His throat is dry, it's hard to make words. He can see again now; Spike's standing up from his chair, his face fixed, reaching for the phone. Wesley frowns and doesn't hand it over.
"What'd you think? Pretty great, huh?"
"I think you're a sadistic fucker."
"Wes!" Angelus laughs. "Language, Wesley. I'm shocked."
"I can't imagine why. It's what you want to hear, isn't it?"
"Can't say I'm disappointed, that's true. But it's not really the language I'm after, Wes. I'm more interested in the way you breathe when you're really wound up, like right now. Sounds like...well, it kind of sounds like how you sometimes get when you remember you're in love with me."
"We're going to find you."
"I love to hear that little pitter-pat, you know? It's a great feeling, being the object of unrequited affection."
"You disgust me."
"When I'm not turning you on. So tell me, what'd you kids do with the piñata? Or should I ask, who got to whack it with the big stick?"
"This conversation is over," Wesley says, and hangs up.
Spike's still standing there with his hand out, a look of faint disbelief on his face.
"Keep looking," Wesley says, going back to his book. Spike sits down slowly and goes back to his pages.
After a minute Wesley picks up the phone and checks the call registry. It wasn't Angel's cell this time; its battery must have died. It was an L.A. number.
Down in the basement, there are two flattened blood bags on the floor of the cell, looking disturbingly like organ meats. Xander lies on the bunk on his back, one hand over his throat, staring at the ceiling. He needs a bath, Wesley realizes. A change of clothes. It's not humane to make him lie there in the clothes he died in.
"Did he say anything else?" Spike asks, rolling his forehead against the bar in front of him. He hasn't been without a cigarette since they found Xander's body, it seems. The one dangling from between his fingers now is almost half ash. The smoke is a blue thread to the ceiling.
Xander rolls his head from side to side on the mattress. When he swallows, the throat wound makes a wet clicking sound and Wesley flinches. "I don't...remember."
"Nothing about where he was going? Did he mention anyone he wanted to see?" It was hard to imagine who Angelus might want to visit, but any lead was a start. The phone number had been a dead end, unlisted. Probably a cell phone he'd stolen. Wesley tried to stop thinking there.
Xander rolls his head again, his eyes still on the ceiling. As Wesley watches, Xander frowns and seems to concentrate--his face slowly melts into demon. He blinks at the ceiling and tests a finger against his own fang. Then the demon subsides, and he's just Xander again. Covered in blood and bruises, but Xander.
"Please stop doing that," Wesley says. Spike looks at him.
"Why?"
There's no good answer to that question, except that it's making Wesley ill to watch it. So he turns his back, taking a careful step away from the cage bars.
"If you can think of anything at all," he says to the empty cage along the far wall, "it could help us. Did he have any maps? Did he seem to be on any kind of timeframe?"
"No." Xander swallows again; Wesley hears it, and winces.
"He's going to go for the White Room again," Spike says. "We know that much."
"He must know he hasn't got a chance. I doubled the protections as soon as we knew what happened." Wesley pauses. "We'll discuss that later."
"Discuss what later?"
"I don't think it's wise to talk in front of...Xander." It's strange to call him that--it feels as though he should say something else now. 'The demon,' or 'that soulless monster masquerading as our friend.'
Spike is giving him a sharp, unfriendly look. "Why not?"
"Why not what?"
"Why shouldn't we talk in front of him?"
Wesley stands there with his mouth ajar, trying to order his thoughts. "Spike, Xander has been turned. Angelus is his sire. There's every possibility that he would betray us and use whatever he learns here to help Angelus."
There's a brief pause while both Spike and Xander look at him. Xander actually lifts his head an inch off the mattress to do it.
Then Spike gives a sharp, barking laugh, and drags hard on his cigarette, knocking its ash to the floor.
"Oh, that's rich," he says. "That's brilliant. God, sometimes I wonder how any of you lot ever make it past Go without getting your head staved in."
Xander lets his head drop back onto the mattress, and fishes with his free hand for the deflated blood bags on the floor. Wesley watches blankly, not sure what he's supposed to say.
"Angelus," Spike says, very slowly and very clearly, "spent three days torturing the poor bugger, then ripped his throat out."
"I'm aware of that. Thank you."
"Hey, Harris." Spike doesn't take his eyes off Wesley, and for the first time Wesley notices that there's something knife-sharp in Spike's gaze. Something more than just grief and anger for a friend. "Angelus shows up here tomorrow, you going to give him the keys and show him around, bring him a nice canapé platter?"
There's a ghastly wheezing sound from the bunk; after a moment, Wesley realizes Xander is laughing. Bitterly, miserably. His fingers find one of the spent bags, and lift it slowly up to his mouth. He stops laughing to suck out a few last drops of blood.
"Still hungry," Spike observes, dropping his cigarette and crushing it with his heel. "I'll go see what's left."
"Angelus tortured Drusilla," Wesley says, knowing it's a bad idea but needing to make his point. "He drove her insane, then turned her, and she never wavered in her devotion to him. He tortured you, too."
"And I hate him."
"How do we know Xander will be like you, rather than Drusilla?"
"You could ask him," Spike says simply, and walks away.
